Friday, October 8, 2021

Floating in the abyss..


You must have missed me! Missed you too! It’s been quite a while that I’ve been floating in the abyss.. been very difficult couple of months filled with pain & lots of blessings. “With hardship comes ease”, and this is eternal..

Both my parents were diagnosed with cancer, & for mom this is her second round. Biopsy, malignancy, surgery, treatment… heavy words that shatter hearts..

Seeing a loved one get weaker is one of the toughest tests to go through.. being helpless is just devastating..
Waiting on results, fearing the worst, living the pain is harder when you’re alone.. playing the role of that tough cookie gets to you eventually..

I’m so worn out, just want to be numb for a while! I forgot me along those lines.. forgot how to breathe as the long nights passed me by..

“Your worry and that fear won’t help you nor them” I kept telling myself- but what can you do when they’re all you’ve got!

Frustrating year filled with worries and fears..

I miss being here so much.. miss being me.. miss being happy.. Mind you, I am very content and grateful, but happy? That comes always with guilt.. 

Looking forward to getting stronger, healing, sharing, and always counting my blessings…

How have you been? Really?

Hope you’re all safe and sound🙏🌸

Love,
Your broken winged bird

Ana Moudou :)

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